i need to.

i think i need to reconsider this.either im too hard to please or u are too hard to be please.sometimes i feel that u dont even see others as one.u know how hurting it is to get some reply which is totally so hurting.so hurt that i can never explain the pain.mayb my decision some time ago was right.i dont know but i think i have given alot for this .and the thing that hurts me the most is,u totally dont understand me at all.u dont understand how i feel or how upset im.even if u ask,is there a point?no because u know i will say im alright im alright.i swear from this time onwards i wont ask u anymore things that u are not interested.

i thought this matter was sorted out a few months ago,yet the same feeling came back again. the feeling of upset came back.the exact feeling.u kept telling me u understand u know,but no?u are still back to old self.i feel so useless because i thought i could help u,but in the end u are still the same.

no matter what, i dont care whether u change or not,i dont care whether u see me as one or not, i dont care whether u care because i told myself no matter what happens,i will smile and i will keep on smiling.

i guess its time i should prioritize.
dont make someone ur priority when u are just an option.i will rmb this.
i think i should stop pleasing people and make myself feel upset.