gahh cant seem to upload photos on blogger!dang,shall do it tmr.
well today nothing much had prelims in the morn then proceed for concert..
after that headed to nanyang with bernice, seems like im the only one from my batch?
headed to vivo to join R,B&G.
left at 4 and went to find drey gy and bel!
awesome badminton match, i said loser treat green tea,in the end i lost!cause i wasnt allowed to smack:(
left at 830?
finally on my chair now.
dang i got bad blister from playing badminton with shoes without socks!ouch.


when we really love someone, throw our hearts into it.
its not the outcome that matters, its the process.

Random!

Audrey calls this a"METAL lunch box"-.-

This cheapo tested the eyeliners from the bodyshop

was down with stupid flu and took medication which made me so drowsy.
meet the fatso audrey at 5 and she says she wanna slap me to wake me up.
went to town to do a quick last min shopping.
went p.s with the fatso and the fatso says she wanna pouts all the way to punggol because i said her mom wont buy her the earrings.
travelled all the way to punggol.
home now.tired tired tired.
and im so excited to go back to nyps tmr!i miss my pri sch friends.





whenever i close my eyes,i see you.

Giving up.

i really dont feel like doing anything.
i wanna give up.
im losing hope in everything.
Family, friends and myself.im tired.
i dont know how to carry on anymore.things arent as simple or easy as i thought.
i should have left long time ago.
i find it meaningless everyday.
im trying yet the results are not producing.
and i missing you every moment.
i've never forgotten you,even if u did,i guess i deserve it.
cause of one reason, you deserve so much better.
i hope you'll find your happiness.

its been 394 days without you

Exhausted.

Thinking of you even more than usual.

You are perfect as you are.

God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

dragging myself from bed every morning.how long is this life going on like this, i cant take it anymore.im tired of everything. things i expected myself to do well, i didnt. those things i expect myself to do badly,true enough it was badly done.i wanna leave the land and be in the sea.


What most people really want is someone to listen, to respect and understand them. When they realize that you understand them, they are motivated to understand your viewpoint.

"It’s sad when people you know
become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you use to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them."

paper was...
anws initial plan was to go home to catch up on my slp, but i saw gy, joey, becky and bel,
so they asked me to join them for lunch,then i called drey too.
last min decision to watch"up".yup and we were taking so many photos in the cinema until when we finish taking,the lady said"excuse me,no taking of photos"we just looked at each other and giggle!hahahah!
now my knee is really painful i dont know why,but its hurting real much:'(




no matter what i do, i always forget to forget you.

Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same.

maths paper was a killer.tmr geog and physics.its time to hit the books georgina. and and one thing i screwed up my oral!like the passage has these words:"two purposes....." i said "two por por por!!!"and normally i will re-read again and the second time i "por por por"again!arghhh i felt so embarrassed!!like i think the tcher was laughing..and good game the conversation was healthcare in singapore.well done huh, prelims for ss was also healthcare.

Learn from yesterday,live for today, hope for tomorrow.

anws visiting grandparents was awesome yesterday. seeing him getting older and older day by day..he lost weight.his energy level is not as high anymore, after a long day he was tired..he could only sit there and fall aslp. and grandma had problems with her legs and her legs aches everyday. i really hope i could smth for them..but i dont know how and what i can do. visiting them yesterday made me realise how i actually have neglected them for so long.i use to visit them once a week, yet now i visit them a few months once?i feel so guilty.

school was short and sweet.i miss my darlings cause i nv see any of them except bernice.
ss was a killer and at least i could do chem paper.mid yr i only scored 2 n a half for the god dam paper-.-i know its retarded.at least this time i know i wont get that low.im confident for the paper.:)

maths paper tmr..its another killer!
and i screwed up the chinese paper again.i bet lao shi is gonna say i didnt put on effort again.like hello i read the question wrongly right,and merely wrote out of point..at least i realise my mistake and wont repeat it again in Os right.i know lao shi meant well but god i really really cant write a good essay for chinese!:(

this good friend of mine insist that she looks nice in this pic like i giving this face now -.-.
anws she finds it nice cause i dont know why..but credits to me!i took this so called"nice" picture.
i swear she is one crazy bitch.but i still love her:)
anws should be studying now, freaking ss and chem paper tmr.
georgina is dead.

I miss those time.time passes,people change, people die, people excel.
I will learn to treasure them before anything happens.
I've lost many people in life, i cant afford to bear the pain again.
Today, made me realize how long i didnt visit my grand parents and how much
i really miss them.
And how many times i promised to help my parents yet i didnt.
I Miss my Family.
I Miss my Friends.
I Miss Everyone.

i dont need you to point out my wrongs.there's nothing left to say.
i really tried to mend this problem. but since you want to do this, fine.
dont say anymore, i'll just leave it as it is.

Dont ask me why.
Maybe i shouldnt even have appeared.
I need another day to break down.
There's nothing left to say.

i gotta change myself.

i feel like breaking down.just for today.

The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long.

okay just a quick update,school was fun,revision, revision and more revision.chinese results was disappointing..




photos taken during national day hols and gathering with besties at holland.


bernice protecting her "assets"

ducky enjoying her crayfish tom yam soup.

group photo




Blue lagoon
Long island tea

sch was bad,11 of us got scolded in the morning and we have to stay back everyday until 5 and stand at parade sqaure every morning.how awesome.
dpa results..:was bad..wasnt choosen though...kinda disspointed.and tmr is chinese o level results, i think its gonna be worst.

currently on the phone WITH BRENDA LIM LI JIN.BRENDA SAYS *******SUCKS.i miss this bitch..missing in school for like 1 week:(school is boring without seeing this fat bitch beside me during recess.when i see her, i'll be very motivated to EAT.i dont know why but i guess when i see her, she just reminds me of food.

school was great..lessons were nothing muchh though only geog wksht and practical..sighh i have to stop going trg and start revising for prelims/o levels. but i really miss trg..sigh. i really feel like giving up now..i need motivation..but i guess with motivation..it still doesnt help.

school was awesome recently...i really really love sch esp lessons in humanities room esp geog and physics.sigh prelims are starting yet im not motivated:(help!anws went trg on sat..awesome!i really love trg and vb now..like say when u graduate u will play so much better as there isnt any pressure..after trg headed to shire's place to get stuff to go to my house and study tgt..after that headed to sim lim square to get drey's thumbdrive,poor girl couldnt retrieve her documents back..she has to redo the coursework which we've done for seven months and she must complete it by monday.lesson learnt:always have back up copies of important documents!that explains why i immediately got a hard drive as i got a feeling my laptop is gonna crash any moment.

anws yesterday night was horrible..effing cab cheated my money..it was sat and obviously whoever idiot also knows orchard would be jammed..yet that idiot still went by orchard..i swear i was really angry and i really wanted to blast at him. if i got like one 50 dollar note i swear i will throw it into his face slam the door.he totally made me turned off.and was suppose to watch soccer with my uncle and sis yet i fell aslp..i feel so bad!but anws gunners scored 6-0.well done gunners!

okay currently sitting at starbucks waiting for aud to buy me food!gosh im hungry and i also promised my sis and jazreel to have supper with them.im turning fat.gahhh tmrs trg and pe on tuees..lookng forward to it!i miss everyone..cant wait to see them tmr.

i learnt my lesson.ever since u were gone,i learn to treasure things before its gone and appreciate whatever others have done for me.i want u to come back so that i can show u what i've learnt and treasure you this time.

EDITED---pictures taken today!

national day celeb!

Look at the colour difference between drey's and mine


Introducing the two "blinds" in my class


lessons were pretty awesome today..at least we had one free period and maths was efficient,managed to solve the questions by myself!awesome..i simply love physics class..and yup chinese, gah i dont udnerstand why we still gotta take chi prelims when o levels for chi is over,i mean its really a waste of time..and writing essays over and over again..and dang i just rmbed i have not completed the essay that was given today..dang i hate chinese..yup and after sch, went to sgh for my mri results, its confirmed that my right knee has dislocated and the funniest part was..doctor says no climbing of stairs, and no duck walking exercise..but he says its best i do PE.like hello i mean if a teacher sees u going for PE lessons and stuff it proves that im alright..i dont know how to explain to my teacher tmr..gahhh hate this feeling..