:)

2010-12-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

im happy that you are happy, im glad things worked out great for you.although sometimes i still think of you and the past, there's nothing i can do except to slowly let go, because right from the start you dont belong to me, we were just there for each other.
although i hate to see or know the true, i gotta accept because all these are nothing but truths.

Letting go of someone u love is like putting ur favorite things into donation box; u'll miss it, but u know someone deserves it more.
i'll rmb this.
you seem cold to me whenever we dont see each other and when we see each other, the coldness is gone, its really a terrible feeling. i hate this shit and it has been going for quite awhile.
im tired and i will give up slowly starting from now.
i know mayb i was thinking too much, but i cant help it either.
please spare me. i go to bed thinking of the problems or conclusions to why all these happen.
but i know no matter how much i think, the past is gone and you too, are gone.
im sad but im learning to acccept it.

2010-11-06T18:37:00.003+08:00

it is because whenever u let go of something or give up on something then things starts coming back to you?rmbing how hard i try to talk to you or start a conversation with you, yet now,everything flows right into place, how ironic life is. when u care so much for someone yet they give a shit about you, then when u finally give up caring for them, they come back, care for you, and make u go through the same things u dont want to go through again, lots of incident made me lose trust for ppl and know the meaning of "nothing lasts forever" nothing will. its just a matter of time i guess, no matter how hard i try sometimes things just go out of way, then when u really wash your hands out, they come back,then i get back the same shit if i start to care again, when they said forever, they meant nothing, it all just lies lies lies and more lies.
i hate to disappoint myself over and over again, i dont know what ur thinking and i dont wanna know anymore. sometimes i thought to myself, so what if i tell u everything and all the feelings i have inside, will it change a thing?probably not. and even after telling you, does tt mean that u will act the way i want u to?i think u will either act as normal again, or start distancing . and worst to worst lose you as a friend. im happy with how things are right now, yet at the same time im afraid that they will be gone in no time, and i know myself, this time i preparing for the worst, so that when time comes, i will feel okay.i guess this is what happens when u pin hopes on things that disappoints you.i just wanna help you that are within my means and i sincerly want you to be happy, u being happy can even mean hurting myself, but i dont mind at all, i really want u to be happy. from the bottom of my heart, being happy also means im not part of you happiness.

2010-11-01T19:30:00.002+08:00

everything seems like better than before, i dont know why but i just feel u seem to care more now, i dont wanna trust too much because i dont wanna get hurt again, i dont wanna care as much as before, and i think sometimes are better left unsaid, cause what is running through my mind is absolutely not what you are thinking about, like what im thinking is all just dreams,and i gotta wake up.i may appear like i dont seem to care much anymore, but deep down, i do and wanna care for you.i dont wanna see u upset or getting hurt, i just want u to be happy, happy can also be me not being a part of your life.

2010-10-19T18:11:00.002+08:00

im still healing, dont make things fall out of place again, i trying hard to be happy and move on, pls dont destroy my efforts by making me fall into places, then leaving me a whole big shit of mess again.im tired of clearing the mess, pls just let me be, just let things flow.
whenever i do something which has got to do with you, i think twice before acting because im tired of getting back all those shit again.
why is it that when i've given up on something, things starts happening again and again, then when i reciprocate i get back those hurt, no, ten times more hurt,it seems like a cycle which keeps coming back to me.
take it that im begging you, please spare me,spare my life.
when i think of the smiles you gave and those conversations you started, my heart is trying to take a step back to get to a clearer picture before responding to it, i've learnt to be quiet and just let things be on its own, im tired of trying too hard.
i hope you understand why im acting this way, because im tired of getting hurt and thinking about it all day.
im starting to get use to times without you because i know its a matter of time you'll be gone, and i think the time is soon.

2010-10-16T10:05:00.003+08:00

its hurts losing someone who used to be so close to you, the pain cannot be explained or told till u really experience it, i thought i would be strong enough to overcome all this shit but i was wrong about myself, i cannot and its hurting so much.
life is ironic, when you have something, although u treasure or didnt treasure,eventually you will still lose it. like seasons change,so do people.
i guess it hurts so much because i nvr expected things to turn out this way, i thought i found something which meant forever,but now forever is broken.
the only thing i know now is that we talk so much lesser than last time, i dont expect anything in return, i only want a friendship, a long lasting one. but i doubt things can ever go back as last time, mayb things i do now mayb an irritant to you, i accept it cause i cant change the way you are thinking, or mayb you heard some stuff about me thats why u decided to distant me, whatever the reason it, i nvr regretted having you as my friend.
i admit im weak, i always cry when i lose something.
right now im lost, and i dont know what to do nxt.
and this shit has been going on for months, i dont know how much longer i can hold on to it.
and i guess im prepared losing you anytime from now.

2010-09-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

sometimes i think the best thing to do is to keep everything to myself, although i'll suffocate myself but i think its better this way.whatever that happens in the past, it feels like a dream,time to wake up,g. things cannot be the same as the past, pick yourself up and move on.its better to trust and count on myself.
i miss you, best friend.

2010-01-30T11:45:00.002+08:00

been neglecting my cliques and vb teammates so much now.
everyone is so busy with their own lives and im getting lazier and lazier each day.
everyone is working or studying everyday while im just home..slacking.
i feel so bored not working and i seriously miss working in RH.

and get ur effing facts right.i choose to work there because i really enjoy working with the kids and NOT to go there to play with the staffs.and excuse me,so what if the staff and i are close?its cause we all are at around the same age..too bad u are way off from our age.enough okay.enough about bitching about us alright,i didnt do ANYTHING FUCKING THING TO U.pls just get ur facts right.all of us know whos the one slacking and not doing HER job well enough.we all know,but we kept quiet because u are our senior.and U as a senior didn't even SET good example to us,what makes u think that u are right?so what if u are the senior teacher,u think u have the PRIVILEGE to slack,bitch and boss us around?oh please,please look into the mirror seriously.wtf man seriously.

i rather be jobless than let anyone malign me for things which i DIDN'T do.

i miss school.
i miss having trainings and vb outing tgt.
i miss going to the beach with vb cliques.
i miss everyone who use to be around me.
i miss RH kids and staff.

The day.

2010-01-24T01:13:00.003+08:00

Thanks hazel for the gift,really an unexpected one!
Elephant loves Moo Moo Cow forever!haha sorry for spoiling ur surprise,but hey i rushed back okay,and i was sweating like a mad cow u know!and there u were laughing like crazy!haha aww anws really thanks for the present,the gift made me stun for awhile when i opened it.im looking forward to see my family nxt week!u made me feel guilty sometimes for bullying u:(okay i'll let u bite me okay?fair?hahha thank you so so so much,love you lots!

Thank you guiying,rosabel,audrey and sihui for the gift!haha u girls know i really love adidas right!hahah thanks!love u all!:)
thank you for always being there for me when im down or needed guidance throughout the years in sch and i swear i really do miss sch and the times where we all have chinese banding and classes at different places,i miss sitting beside all of u and i miss bullying laoshi with gy n bel and i miss audrey asking me to "keep quiet leh"during lessons,and sihui playing tap tap with me during recess:(i miss all those times in school,and thks for the dinner,although the surprise wasnt carried out,but still its the thoughts that counts right!

and thanks to those who wished me.there are too many to be named,thank you so so much.

and lastly..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF AND QUACK QUACK!

FINALLY 18.

2010-01-19T09:43:00.002+08:00

Right firstly happy birthday to all january babies!

1)Dominic-3rd jan
2)Brother-10th jan
3)Ryshire-12th jan
4)Pamela-13th jan
5)Yinsuan-14th jan
6)Gu Zhang-17th jan
7)Bernice-18th jan
8)Aunty-20th jan
9)cousin-23th jan
10)carolyn-24th jan
11)mom-28th jan

awesome so many jan babies!
right im off from work for 2 weeks,hopefully i can go back to Rh:(super love that place.
kids there are super adorable.
and dam im sick,down with cough and flu...again!
and i drank like more than 2litres of water yest.dam keep going to the toilet,but lucky i drank otherwise i will be getting sore throat from durian:(

2010-01-15T20:42:00.003+08:00

dad and sis

sis and bro:)

dad and mum:)

ahh these pics are like 3 weeks ago i think?dinner at novena!
ahh i will slowly post pics up,dam lots of pics but im so lazy to sort it up:(

2010-01-12T23:30:00.002+08:00

"That which does not kill me, makes me stronger."

thks cousin for ur advice.
i seriously hope sim accepts me.
its gonna be a long tough road.i hope i can hang in there.
i feel like giving up everything right at this moment.seriously.
i disappoint far to many people,i can only say sorry,but the disappointment lasts forever.
dont hate me,because im already hating myself and its enough.

2010-01-11T22:43:00.001+08:00

i'm so dissapointed in myself.
what should i do now?:'(

this is so unexpected.
mayb i use the wrong way to study for. it.
wasted one yr in sch.
mom keep asking me to go ite.but.i.dont.want.
i hate myself.

2010-01-01T09:59:00.002+08:00

happy new year.its a new year new start new beginning.
hope things in 2010 will be smoother and i wish everyone around me good health and happiness.

right,i felt like a loner staying home on countdown!was in sch the whole morn,went over to meet friends at holland v..and rush back to school,after sch went to amk hub,wanted to catch a movie but man the queue was so effing long.so dropped the idea,instead went to my friends house to pick her son up to go shopping!gosh shopping with kids are tedious..and so we decided to drop her kid at home and we went to the void deck to slack.and we came up with this idea of going to THE NIGHT SAFARI!omg i swear it was dam random!so we bus-ed down to ngiht safari,well done,so many ppl and we took like 20 min to queue for the tram ride!after that we headed home cause we were so tired..thank god i got home at 9ish and the train wasnt crowded yet,11ish gy came over and slack till 1ish..what an awesome conuntdown night:)

2009-12-24T21:52:00.002+08:00

kids from RH2!so awesome and cuteeee...3rd pic is my son raz!followed by the two cutest brother alex and matthew!gosh starting work in new environment in jan:(

2009-12-21T20:47:00.004+08:00

yay,work was awesome today!had ball fighting with students and staff!awesome,starting to love my job,but the saddest thing is that,its my last few days in that school:(will be transferred to else where:(i will miss the students and everyone there:(
anws out with ryshire yesterday and my baby camera!awesome:)hah lots of picc!and also pics with gy and drey on the camera's first day.

2009-12-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

hello.
japan pics in fb,so lazy to upload,mayb when im free:)
alright official first day of work today,it was awesome.
kids are pretty adorable when they cry and there are so many Caucasian kids!all so pretty and good looking!
haha and i adopted a son,his name is raz.hes so cute when he cries and he wants me to carrying him wherever i go:)

im happy that u are happy.

2009-12-02T00:36:00.001+08:00

flying off to japan in 8hrs!
will upload pics of this week when im back!
i dont know why im not exciteddd for the trip at all.
dont feel like going:(

2009-11-28T22:57:00.008+08:00

dante soh xing hao

shawnalina:)

last year's tour guide.

my sub-setter!

my new friend--joel.

this year's tour guide.

coach:)

my son:)

okay photos from vietnam!took super long to upload all these.argh.

2009-11-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

finally back!
tired.tired.tired.
swollen duck lips:(
pics tmr!

2009-11-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

this is a temporary tattoo!not sticker!-.-

Happy 17th birthday GUI YING AND ROSABEL!

right so i've been out like the whole week.this is random but i suddenly miss studying and having extra lessons during the holidays!gosh cant believe this.yeaa gave prom a missed,caused it like..i dont know..just dont feel like going...well flying off to vietnam on monday!cant wait!!!then off to japan again!awesome much?:)

2009-11-17T00:31:00.003+08:00

"u not happy is it?"

right so yup class chalet today,awesome.only like a few people though.the food was so good.great jobs guys!hahaha they were like sweating and cooking the food while the girls just sat there and wait for food to be served!awesome class.:)

schedule for this week:
1)celebrate bel bel's birthday on tues
2)wed training
3)thurs girls outing
4)fri training
5)sat rest
6)sunday sleepover for the girls
7)and finally off to vietnam!

i feel so guilty.im out everyday.

"The hardest thing to do is watch someone you love, love someone else."

2009-11-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

right,so its like end of Os and i swear im like a bad kiddd...out everyday..but not to play of course..went for trainings to train before going vietnam and also to help the team improve even more..hmm right its like so many things to do and attend after Os..haven totally slp 8 hrs per day..anws went to town with sis,ryshire,brenda and grace..and i went for the acs carnival today.it was awesome..and i saw two lamboghini and its like woah.

right cant wait for sunday!the girls are planning a stayover because we are flying off nxt monday!yay.and i cant wait to celebrate nov babies birthday on thurs.and and of course tmr catching 2012 with my buddy:)yay.

2009-11-11T10:51:00.002+08:00

FREEDOM IN 4 HRS!
so many plans!
1)shopping with drey laters.
2)shopping with gy tmr,and stay over at fat ass house
3)date with bernice!
4)class chalet!
5)trainings and beach!
6)find a day to go out with joey n ys!(mahjong session yo!)
7)rosabel,gui ying and simin's birthday
8)meeting up with ex-staff!
9)work!
10)japan!
11)vietnam!
12)volleyball referee course!

bye.

2009-11-10T18:26:00.002+08:00

screw the dam chinese paper.so effing hard.i think this time i'll get D7.yay
and BYE to chinese forever.
i swear today is the last time im gonna ever write a freaking chinese essay and doing the dam chinese compre.
yay bid good bye to chinese!:)

2009-11-09T17:22:00.003+08:00

i love this:)

well another couple of days will be the official end of o levels.well done huh.
disappointed,excited,happy,depressed.all sorts of feelings.mixed.
and i finally got to go for training and sentosa for beach vb.
fun fun fun.the weather was awesome,the company was marvelous.

cant wait for vietnam and japan.
i love being with everyone around me.
i can never describe how much i really love you people,its just so hard to describe,
one word love is not enough.
thanks for being there for me always.

Dedications!(part 1)

2009-10-31T15:00:00.003+08:00

first of all classmates:
1) tan yin suan---hello buddyyy...omg 3 years zooom so fast!rmb u told me that you were like shock to know that i was ur classmate,hahaha i know im scary but see now im your buddy leh!rmbing in sec 2..siting introduce u me as the 'curtain-hair-girl'haha thats how i know u,and it was when i was on duty,so i didnt bother about you..hahaha..right then sec 3 first day of school,ms ong told me to sit with you,and i rmb the place..its at the window row 3..in front of us was sihui and audrey,and always when they sleep we would take photos of them.and and when we had food the dustbin was like so FAR away from us so we had a nearby dustbin right?!and moving on, 301 was downstair and they say they always hear"pak"sound..hahah u know whats that?the flying drink rmb??hahah then chee ying will come and ask"eh what ur doing upstair huh?"hahha then toilet breaks!rmb we always walk pass 304 and wave to eunice and siting?asking them to join us in the toilet..man all the teachers we made them laugh,teared and all.rmb all the fun moments..man i will really miss school after we seriously finish our o levels.i'll miss you and yes miss u even more.take care and all the best for exams budddy!love you!

2)audrey lim--hello gal!its been 3 yrs since we really became friends to awesome friends!rmbing sec 2 i always catch u and guiying for shoelace socks etc..and never did i expect that we actually became classmates and now even good friends!things are really so unpredictable. and in ssec 3 i didnt really talk to you,ok mayb like a hi and bye thing?but as days passed years passed,we are great friends now..rmb we wanted to be philosophers??hahaha we motivated each other.its been great having u in class and i really treasure all the moments we had as a class.do well for Os then we can go out and have fun tgt with the rest:)take care and all the best for the reminaing papers!love you!

3)sihui--hahha helloo i know u dam well now because u are my meet-at-bus-stop-before-going-sch-friend!hahaha pls lah u always late one lor..rmb night study starts at 630?we reach at 730 and go home at 845..and we spent more time talking!haha i enjoyed myself during the day we went to celebrate ur bday at the sg flyers!hahah awesome u know..although we are class mates for 3 years but i only started to be dam close to u like this yr?hahah and also im ur buddy for cabbing-ah?-stop-me-at-queenstown-leh..right?hahaha take care and all the best in whatever u do:)

4)simin--simin!oh my u are the classmate who has been with me for 5 yrs!we meet in sec 1 rmb?then we were like super close friends that we always talk on the phone about******hahhaha rmb???we spent time talking on the phone non stop!ahha i love talking on the phone with u!okay all the best in whatever u do okay..u are a friend i treasure too:)take care!:)

5)syazana--hahha hello,i rmb u as my VERY FIRST FRIEND in qss!and u know the first time i talked to u,i thought u were a chinese!haha its been a pleasure having u in class.although i always bully you.but deep down u are a friend i treaure too:)and sorry if i talked loud when teaching u math okay..haha u know im a loud-voice-bird in class so cant help it:)anws all the best for the future and enjoy yourself after o levels..take care:)

chinese class friends:
1)guiying--hello yingggg!!!oh my chinese class was fun right..always when we are slpy we would tell lao shi that we are not well..hahaha awesome right,i really enjoy the time in chinese with u all..and when i bully lao shi ur laugh at me and u always lend me disc to watch thks ah!!..hahahah i love you all!haha all the best okay:)take care!

2)rosabell---hello bellllllll!!!omg i love having u in chinese class because u always pronounce the words for me!and i really appreciate it..and and i love going to your house u knowww!! and and we will go out more after Os okay..cause i miss talking to you!i haven talk to u for a long time since the last day of sch!okay do your best and all the best!love ya!

3)joeylok--yo yo yo joey lok hui hui!!!hahaha i love it when u told me about the "hui hui hui ma?"then u reply"hui hui hui"hahaha its dam funny can!anws omg so fun having u in class and and who ask u act smart transfer class if not now u will be my PURE class mate!hahah omg i miss the times when we go sentosa u know!next time we go again kk!all the best!

okay i dont feel like typing anymore,if u realise the more i type the lesser the words!ahha i shall continue another day!

2009-10-30T13:49:00.002+08:00

hello yinggg*waves hand*
omg he so dam hot right!:)))

cant wait for it to be over.

2009-10-30T12:44:00.001+08:00

its another mundane day.
cant wait cant wait!
2 more weeks.
off to vietnam.
off to japan.
2 down,4 more to go.
i miss volleyball.

2009-10-28T18:19:00.002+08:00

screw the dam paper.seriously,screw you,get the hell outta my life.
totally screwed.:(

let the battle begin.

2009-10-26T11:30:00.002+08:00

Right,so today will be the first officially O level paper.i hereby wish my friends best of luck and let's just not worry,just do our best and even if the result is not what we expect,we know that we tried our best.we all come so far together,let's just all do it together and move on in the next chapter of our lives.3 more weeks and we will be free.All the best.

2009-10-25T12:59:00.002+08:00

i have not been my usual self and i dont know why:'(
i just feel like crying,without any reasons.

i need to.

2009-10-23T22:02:00.004+08:00

i think i need to reconsider this.either im too hard to please or u are too hard to be please.sometimes i feel that u dont even see others as one.u know how hurting it is to get some reply which is totally so hurting.so hurt that i can never explain the pain.mayb my decision some time ago was right.i dont know but i think i have given alot for this .and the thing that hurts me the most is,u totally dont understand me at all.u dont understand how i feel or how upset im.even if u ask,is there a point?no because u know i will say im alright im alright.i swear from this time onwards i wont ask u anymore things that u are not interested.

i thought this matter was sorted out a few months ago,yet the same feeling came back again. the feeling of upset came back.the exact feeling.u kept telling me u understand u know,but no?u are still back to old self.i feel so useless because i thought i could help u,but in the end u are still the same.

no matter what, i dont care whether u change or not,i dont care whether u see me as one or not, i dont care whether u care because i told myself no matter what happens,i will smile and i will keep on smiling.

i guess its time i should prioritize.
dont make someone ur priority when u are just an option.i will rmb this.
i think i should stop pleasing people and make myself feel upset.

2009-10-19T14:45:00.005+08:00

this is random but i seriously miss school.
I MISS :
-walking around school during changing of lessons.
-going over to 511 for chinese lessons
-doing random things to make class mates laugh
-playing floorball in class
-the times where we brought food to class in sec 3 and its was dining session for different periods
-the school canteen
-the com lab where we will surf the net more than we do our project.
-pe lessons in the field cause we get to run like crazy people all over the place
-the DnT block(right ys?)
-playing basketball after school while waiting for night study to commence
-sleeping in class
-laughing at teachers when they pronounce the word wrongly(nope im not trying to be mean.)
-laughing at classmates when they do silly things
-arguing with yinsuan during lessons over some lame stuff and each other's shoulder during lessons(cause we were so-sleepy that we supported each others not-able-to-let-teacher-find-out that we are slping.)
-arguing with audrey during maths and she asking me to "keep quiet leh"cause im forever making-so-much-noise.
-playing tap tap revenge with sihui during recesses
-disturbing syazana during lessons
-playing badminton in school
-sitting together in one straight row
-the classroom
-during the time in sec3 where all sec 3s were in the same level
-the time where yinsuan and i walk pass 304 to call siting and eunice to go to the toilet tgt
-sitting in parade aquare
-standing in front of the parade square for punishment
-staying back for group study
-qssp(queensway self study programme)
-meeting vb girls(bernice,ryshire,brenda,yunhui)after school
-meeting people from different levels
-climbing the stairs although we always complain that graduating classes should be at the ground floor
-sitting in canteen during recess till the teachers chase us back to class room
-reading programme in the school hall,level contact and assembly
-setting up the volleyball net
-the humanities room where we have air condition lessons for the entire year
-doing class duties
-playing outside the corridor at level 6 and making so much noise
-mr wong coming up to us to ask us chem question and if we dont know he will step on our feets
-seeeing mr chua for consultations
-getting scolding from ms ong
-practically miss all the teachers,can never name them one by one because they did so many things for us, and i sincerly thank them.although we often make them angry,but still deep down they care for us. thks for everything teachers and also the graduation performance, not forgetting the awesome 2009 cohort.

thinking back,i always wanted to get out of school,but now,i feel like staying there and not leave,study leave makes me realise how much i miss my sec school life. we really did many awesome things in school and the prgrammes the schoool planned (although we always complain"waste time leh")but still i miss those days where we have endless courses in school.

2009-10-19T01:26:00.002+08:00

I told myself to be happy from this moment.
And I'm really happy for you.
And i know you have chosen the right choice this time.
Take good care,All the best.

2009-10-15T16:20:00.002+08:00

i miss my awesome 2008/09 team mates.
i miss volleyball.
i miss trainings.
i miss playing at siloso beach.
im looking forward to volleyball vietnam trip this year.
cant wait for Os to be over.

2009-10-13T14:21:00.003+08:00

right i was absent from school yesterday cause was down with fever flu and sore throat..well i was actually enjoying my sleep, then yinsuan called,two seconds later, audrey called, after that was sihui.dang i swear i was so slpy that i hang up all of those calls. and about 30 min later this was what happened:

yinsuan called and say:hey i very hungry lehhh how how?
me:go eat lah!*hang up*

audrey called:eh i very thirsty leh how?
me:go drink all u want lah no one stop u*hang up*

sihui called and before she called i was thinking of what to say, so i told myself i will say:(u stomach pain is it?go toilet lah)
and true enough sihui told me this:eh i very urgent leh i want go toilet!how how??
me:u want tell me u stomach pain is it?go lah go lah dont disturb me!*hang up*

hahah although they disturbed my slp but still they made my day and after that i couldnt go back to slp!love you girls.

went back to sch sick.was excused was afternoon classes:(

2009-10-11T23:18:00.003+08:00

after graduation, badminton game with tchers headed home shower and chuntin for dinner,gosh we had dinner at like 830pm when my usual dinner is like 630pm!gosh we were all so hungry..anws after that we planned to catch a midnight show, hmm so we still have alot of time, so went to grandmas place to slack,left and bus-ed to chinatown, and headed for movies!gosh i swear i was sleepy-and-freezing in the cinema, practically dying,and gy and i fell aslp,how awesome.reached home at 2am slpt and lesson was at 10am.and gosh,i overslept and was late.

Graduation!

2009-10-11T23:07:00.004+08:00

right all these pics are from graduation on fri,well there are more,but im so lazy to upload them.

2009-10-08T20:08:00.002+08:00

hmm lessons were pretty normal, first two periods we were free cause tcher was on mc i think?yeaa..so spent it one studying a while and catching up some slp..hmm ss was fun, tcher came in and started distributing sweets!and she gave us each a key chain with and phrase on it, thank you tcher,after sch went to look for tcher to get my report card, and yeaa she used us as cheap labour to pack graduation stuff for her..and lessons for lucky 7 was cancelled too,so practically lessons were cancelled for the whole week!we wanted to stay for to ask question for physics but the tcher was no where to be seen, so we thought he may be free at 330..we waited and we had bball match!

on a lighter note, we will be graduating tmr!how awesome.but im gonna miss sch, like i attended sch for 5 yrs in qss and leaving there makes me sad,memories with friends and tchers, all the punishment and achievements we had, and all the scoldings and naggings will soon come to an end.although some of us wil have to go back next week, still we will be upset because our tchers will be performing and giving us our graduating cert.thinking about makes me excited yet at the same time,sad:(

2009-10-05T23:28:00.004+08:00

lessons were pretty awesome today, except got scolded by*****like wtf?whatever u say is right, did u ever bother about listening to our explanation before screaming at us like some mad cow?put YOURSELF in other people's shoe and understand our situation, u think we wanna lose those things?u think we wanna go report during ur effing lesson?no.
if u think u are a great person, then singapore would snow because if were ever get an A1 for ur effing sub, singapore will snow and pigs will fly.pls think twice before yelling at us like nobody's business, GET YOUR EFFING FACTS RIGHT FIRST. we respect u and i hope u will respect us in return.

after school headed to paragon with audrey because i wanted to get my ipod cover and phone cover, but in the end we went to the kids shop to shop..left town ard 4ish and home,fell aslp,dinner and headed to tampines to see the Chinese physician, dang he wrapped my leg, and tmr is the last pe of the year:(

2009-10-04T14:10:00.002+08:00

hmmm tired from exercisers on friday and saturday:(
badminton on friday with mates
swimming on sat with cousin
dang tired:(

Editted---

lunch with mom today and shopping too!
shopping shop shop shop and in the end got a new phone cause mom have got a 300 voucher so yup just use it.awesome.mom shopped at desigual which is like freaking ex clothes and i treated her to bakerzin okayy..dinner with dad and aunt..beijing duck!awesome.
and arsenal won with a marvelous score of 6-2
way to go gunners!

2009-09-30T19:21:00.003+08:00

tiring and hectic day.man time passes so fast that i could barely enjoy physics practical, dang i nv finish physics practical on time:( anws was home early and brenda limmy called, she came and VACUUM all my food away.:(now im left with nothing.thks limmy.

2009-09-29T19:45:00.002+08:00

yay finally submitted coursework A and B after soooo longgg!!!!finally seen the project being handed in!gosh we had like 2hrs of fnn today and guess what we did, just sit there and do our own things as teacher wants to mark the file, so we slack talked studied and she said "U CAN DO WHATEVER EXCEPT USING THE COMPUTER"haha we were all so obedient that none of us switch on the computer..yet at 845 we couldnt resist, ys drey and i used the com!hahahah ys and i started the idea on playing viwawa!hahah awesome right.. we played mahjong then sushido and we kept talking so yeaa i guess tcher knew we were playing buy she didnt say anything...until bell rang we were still playing, she said"eh can ur go for recess?stop playing.dont think i dont know ah."hahaha she was so cute, so after school went back to touch up and finally she marked are submitted them!yay fnn project is over, now im worried of the grades i would get:(

dang the whole school is having exam, and i thought recess would be like lesser people and we can avoid the queue yet today we went down, there were like 2x more ppl-.-so effing pissed so we decided to da pao up.breakfast in class was awesome:)

2009-09-28T20:16:00.001+08:00

i miss my laughing gas very much:(

2009-09-28T19:37:00.004+08:00

lessons after school was cancelled, yay. so had lunch ryshire, because poor ducky was so sad, but anws after that she was okay:)CHOCOLATE MOUSSE WAS AWESOME RIGHT DUCKY??!hmmm her dad fetched me home and yes i went straight to bathe and Randi called and told me she lost her phone, poor girl and she became my alarm clock!she volunteer to wake me up, true enough she did, she disturb my slp:(

There's this place in me where your finger prints still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

2009-09-27T17:24:00.002+08:00

oh gosh, im so effing tired!
sat:i woke up seven and went to jog and had breakfast at sixth avenue and back to grands place.meet aunt and my sis for dinner, sushi tei!gosh i seriously got no appetite to eat anything cause i feel really fat, i only had breakfast and light dinner:(, after that headed to surprise and cheer brenda limmy up!poolside session was awesome, we had starbucks with chocolate cake, of course i didnt eat, she ate the whole piece..hahah one fat bitch!yup i was complaining that the time passed so slow because we talked alot and i reach there at 930 but we talked so long and the time was only 10.05!goshh real slow...so we continued talking, playing tap tap revenge and listen to music and counting stars!then it was like 12am plus, that bitch suggested watching twilight in her room, gosh i swear i was bored to death because im never interested in that show and she even didnt allow me to take a dam nap, so i was so obedient that i sat and started drawing graph,awesome huh.i left her place at around 2am plus and headed home,and great mum didnt scold and brother wasnt even home, and sis just got home not long ago:)
sun:woke up at freaking 9 am, helped my uncle till 1 pm and got called by brenda limmy again to acc her..and now im home, waiting for the time to pass to meet ryshire to give her a surprise!

i miss:
-arguing with ys during lessons over me and ****and she and ****
-audrey asking me to "keep quiet leh"during lessons
-sihui and her "ehh *****so cute"
-calling joey shifu!
-rosabel making me laugh during chinese
-talking to gy during chinese to irritate the teacher
-ryshire and her lame jokes
-bernice and her high pitch voice
-brenda and her "make-me-feel-hungry-when-i-see-her-feeling"
i wanna see all of them tmr:(

btw,happy birthday daddy.

2009-09-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

It's weird... When you finally think you're over someone, and then you hear a song, see a picture, or do something that reminds you of them, and for those few minutes, they're all you can think about. And something in the back of your mind is telling you that you're not over them.

I can't explain love the way other people can, I don't even know if I've ever been in love, but I do know the feeling I get when I'm around you; when I'm not with you it only makes me want you more. You do something to me - I can't really explain it, but whatever it is, I don't ever want to forget it.

2009-09-24T23:09:00.001+08:00

this post is specially for guiying!cheer up girl!tmr will be a better day:)

2009-09-24T18:57:00.004+08:00

coach:)

photos of last year's vb team going to Vietnam.

hmm lets see, i cant wait for Os to be over!theres so many things that i can do!my mum even planned for a holiday trip, and yes we are going to japan!and before that i think i have decided to go with vb team to Vietnam!gosh so awesome!so gonna get more adidas shirt from there! really cant wait for Os to be over!hmmm i just gotta hang in there and everything will be fine!yes yes im gonna tackle those effing hard question to at least score a B3!dang dang dang...i cant wait for hols.

2009-09-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

i mustn't give up.
i need to hang. on.
just a while more i'll be free.
i cannot waste my 10 yrs of effort to flunk my Os.
just do what is right, everything will be fine.

anws today was great.grp study was cancelled so i wanted to head home to really sleep, cause i was effing tired!but after that gy,ys and hui hui as me to join them to play basketball before night class.so yup rushed home changed and went back to sch, great i finally get to sweat all i want to at least lose some fats, after that ard 6pm we went hawker to have dinner and we saw our tcher, so i sat with her and ys too, but my GOOD FRIEND tys dumped me with her!dam so i had my dinner with my beloved teacher.then went back to school to had night class, all of us were like drained after playing and stuff..but we managed to survive!we left at 845 and i reached home at 915..dang tired tired tired:(

i hope this will come to an end soon.

2009-09-22T18:04:00.005+08:00

"bernice lied to me"*pouts

"so what u want now?not happy is it?"

Fight FIGHT

Another moment HUG each other again-.-

"look at my duckkyyy"

"bernice ate my mousse:("

yup went ikea with ryshire and bernice again..hmm cause today class was cancelled so yup went to ikea with bernice first as ryshire had chi oral, so bernice and i studied for a while until ryshire came..and the fight started!lol really love them, super adorable kids:D

lessons was pretty okay..the day passed very fast, lessons were like short and sweet but more and more practise papers:( yup got to go, audrey's coursework B is waiting for me!poor girl got to redo her coursework B.:(

2009-09-21T21:26:00.004+08:00

"come bus come"

yup, pictures for today.we studied at starbucks and we got chased, they said that study time is only till 4pm.-.- okay so we walked out and went to the big grass patch to take pics!then after that we headed to esplanade lib and studied for about an hour plus, after that headed to vivo for dinner and now home.yes im tired.

2009-09-21T11:41:00.002+08:00

There is nothing you need to do to deserve happiness. There are no 'minimal requirements' for you to fulfill before you can claim happiness. You deserve happiness simply by virtue of having been born. That's it. Nothing more is required. Be happy.

I'll be happy from this moment onwards.nothings gonna bring me down.
although there are times i will be sad again, but then again i would tell myself:
just a smile and everything will be fine.

anws yesterday's 20/09/2009 was spent at grand's place because it was my brothers birthday!then again food was simply awesome, but i felt hungry again at 10pm:(but i didnt eat i went to sleep straight away!hmmm i need to hit the books soon, meeting the girls to study today.laters!

oh and and i planned my nxt saturday plans with my aunt and sis:
sat morning:1)morning exercise
2) breakfast
3)study in the afternoon
4)sushi tei for dinner!(aunt's treat!yay)

2009-09-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

so yup this is my baby cousin, now i can show the fatso(audrey) that my cousin is so cute and the photos are so much nicer.anws woke up, met randi, we chat and headed to citylink and we walked aimlessly and back in bukit timah.awesome.went for an evening jog and ate super little for dinner, but still ate snacks while watching soccer.:(feel so fat!

anws arsenal vs wigan:4-0
go go gunners!
i love fabregas!!:)

2009-09-17T18:34:00.001+08:00

I had a heart and it was true. It fled from me and went to you. Be kind to it as I have done, for you have two and I have none.

It hurts to see you walk away. For admit it or not, you were an important part of my life and the time we shared, will forever be a part of me. So even though I realize that it was never meant to be, still, it hurts.

2009-09-16T19:32:00.005+08:00

more pictures from last week.
let the mugging session begin....
40 days.

"the saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you."

2009-09-15T18:52:00.005+08:00

okay firstly the pics are all in a mess!basically the first few are pictures taken today at ikea with bernice and ryshire:)
then its photos taken in class, because aud return my camera so we just took until the batt went flat-.-
then the rest are photos taken during sihuis birthday celebration at the singapore flyer.

okay school was okay..well 41 more days!hit the books!

even if u realise you mistake, will u change?no.

Every relationship resets on 3 leggings: accepting, supporting and challenging.

2009-09-14T21:52:00.004+08:00

i delete the post with my cousin's photo because the fatso (audrey )says it ugly.omg i swear im gonna take nicer ones and post it again.
anws lessons was pretty awesome but its really last 6 weeks with intensive lessons and drillings.
had an intensive tuition of 2h 30 min and it was hmmm kinda productive!yay.
but still , i got to motivate myself to practice more because i always wanna leave it for tmr, and tmr nv comes.

you dont have to be rich to be clever.

2009-09-13T18:27:00.003+08:00

i think i had enough.
do u even fucking appreciate whatever others is doing or had done for you?
do u fucking care about peoples feelings?
do u even stand by stand people when they needed your help?
do u even treat people like how they treat you?
do u even bother asking/showing concern to others?
you know what,
i see no point in carry this on.
i see no point in helping u out.
i see no point trying to cheer u up when u are sad.
i see no point to even do little things to show that i remember or care for you.
i see no point because u only turn to people when u need them.
i see no point because u think i owe you and im obliged to do it for you.
simply because u dont see people as one, so why should i even bother seeing you as one.
its not my job to please you.

2009-09-13T17:07:00.002+08:00

school is starting tmr yet i dont feel like going back:(

i forced myself to get out of this hole, but the other part of me just enjoy falling into that hole.
i wanna get out so that i could move on to see better things in life.
because i know no matter how much i try or think,
things cant never be like last time.
in life, we are only given one chance. thats it.
no mistakes are allowed.

2009-09-12T12:09:00.000+08:00

i think i will go back to sleep:(

2009-09-11T22:13:00.002+08:00

right...another day passed:( let me summarize, cause im so-lazy-to-type!

10/09/09------
stayed home for the day->got spammed by sihui and yinsuan-.-, met the girls to get sihui's present->home->shower->out to meet the girls again!we went to the Singapore flyer and coincidentally met my sis and slyvia, and they pronounced popeyes as "POP-EYES"..THEY WERE TELLING US "HEY WE ARE HERE TO EAT POP-EYES-.-"SO FREAKING FUNNY CAN.so yup $10 bucks for flyer and took pictures like crazy,will upload when free:)after that starbucks and finally back in bed!

11/09/09------
went for maths lesson today->ended half an hour early to eat celebrate sihuis birthday!thks mr chua for the delicious cake.->headed to the hall for trg->lunch->travelled all the way to marsiling->to singapore american school, and surprisingly coach allowed me to play for one game!although it was kinda short but fun!and and so much laughter was going on..thks to ryshire:)->rushed home with sis->suntec it fair->finally chose a laptop->and now home at BUKIT TIMAH.awesome place:)

2009-09-10T10:52:00.002+08:00

i guess you were never mine.
im glad that our paths did crossed,
and somehow we made each other happy even for a while.

gosh firstly sorry yinsuan and sihui for not replying your msgs!cause i didnt know my phone vibrated!and i was kinda surprised receiving 7 text msgs!i was like which idiot spam my phone..and it turned out to be sihui and yinsuan asking where am i and if i was going for class..gosh i feel so dumb:(

okay felt kinda better this morning, cause my aunt gave me her "magical bed" to sleep on, the bed produces some kinda heat and oxygen to provide better air..and yup i slept through the whole night, i have been having sleepless nights for the past few nights, and normally when i wake up in the morn i feel a little headache, but this morn i didnt!awesome. and my back ache was also gone..thumbs up for the bed!:)
anws i think i should be going back to school tmr, got alot to catch up and revision to do,basically been busy doing fnn and resting at home cause its like after eating the flu medication i will feel drowsy, therefore i will slp the whole day.

tonight, we will be celebrating sihui's birthday!and we're gonna go for singapore flyer, and dinner and chill out!hopefully i will be well by evening:(

Fever:(

2009-09-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

DOWN with fever, sore throat and bad flu.(freaking temp of 37.9)
yay meeting the girls tmr!

EXCITED.:D

i miss volleyball.
i miss beach volleyball.
i miss the sun.
most importantly i miss bernice,brenda,grace,ryshire and yunhui.

Trapped in the past.

2009-09-08T11:01:00.005+08:00

Great minds think alike:)

don't stop me from loving you, i just wanna love you.
it keeps my day going.
me loving you doesnt even affect your life,
because u dont even know i still love you.
and i dont even plan to let you know.
so just let me love you silently,
because i find no rejection this way.

2009-09-08T00:24:00.002+08:00

i hate my life,i dont belong anywhere.
just give me the permission to go away.please.

2009-09-07T12:04:00.001+08:00

Losing everything is at the same time the scariest, as well as the most liberating experience you can have. When you have something, - anything, you've got to protect it from disappearing. And so worry becomes a resident in your heart. When you've got nothing, your heart overflows with gratitude for every offering you receive.

2009-09-05T14:47:00.001+08:00

That is what it is. We can’t change it. We just have to decide how we will respond. We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.

The way wounds heal is a miracle. Inevitably, they heal on their own. All we have to do is not let our hungry egos demand that the pain go away on a certain timetable. We need to have faith that the pain will pass. After all, pain is an emotion and no emotion stays forever.

You will meet some well-meaning people who think they know ways that you can heal more quickly and feel less pain. They may be eager to suggest those ways and may even insist there are things you “should do.” They do, indeed, mean well, and most are acting out of genuine caring. Nevertheless, remember that everything a physical wound needs to heal is already there in the body. Oxygen, blood, nutrients are all in there, ready to begin their work. And the moment you are wounded, the healing begins.

Emotional wounds are the same. Sometimes the wounds do not heal because the mind gets all involved and says things like “I should do this and I will feel better,” or “Maybe I could do that to repair the damage,” or I am hurting because of what another person did, and once they fix it, I will feel better.”

All of this mind talk just interferes with the natural healing process. When one feels deeply hurt, one have everything one needs in yourself to repair the damage. One wants compassion, understanding, and nurturing in order to heal. But most of all, one needs time.

When I am in a dark tunnel, I want to be with people who love me enough to sit in the darkness with me and not stand outside telling me how to get out. I think that’s what we want.

When you are hurt, be close to people who love you and who can tolerate your pain without passing judgment or giving your advice. As time passes, you will long less for what you had yesterday and experience more of what you have today.

Tough times won’t last but tough people do.

its been exactly a year since i gave you that letter, yet there is still no response.

2009-09-03T20:38:00.001+08:00

went back to grands place today.
gosh my cousin is soooo cuteee!
no pics though.but shes really cute, she even smiled today and my uncle say its dam rare!
anws i really need to slim down.effing fat:(

2009-09-02T19:03:00.002+08:00

met randi at vivo at like 1230 and that lady was late!
had lunch and we talked alot,and we found out that both of us have same view on certain things.
which made us able to talk to each other easier, and she brought me to the vivo playground and taught me how to play the modern see-saw-.-
after that headed to sgh for physiotherapy, gosh after using the gym equipment i felt so motivated to slim down, so yup here goes my slimming campaign program during the sep holidays:
-move to bukit timah to stay with grandma
-sleep early and wake up early(i doubt i will do it)
-evening jog every day and some physical exercise in the garden
-less carbohydrate for dinner
-and spent time studying!
yup i am very determined to slim down, really feel so FAT.:(
and that fatso friend of mine(audrey)spent the whole day slping, eating, watching tv and on the com. i will drag her to do some exercise soon.
and i think moving to grandma house will make me move 1/3 of my stuff because there are lessons in sch for certain days.hopefully i'll spent more time studying since the house will be quiet other than my cousin's crying(she's just 2 months!cannot blame.)

2009-09-01T17:20:00.003+08:00

photos from yesterday...going back to nyps tells me how much i missed the school and everyone.
i really miss the old times and my school.six years of memories.even my primary one teacher who taught me chinese is still there, and when she taught me in primary one she was already in her sixties.i miss everyone in nanyang.:(

2009-09-01T17:16:00.004+08:00

stayed home the whole day.
Thinking about life and i think its time to draw a certain line to certain things.
i dont wanna feel upset anymore.
im tired.
if im not apprectiated by some, others will.

2009-08-31T22:13:00.003+08:00

gahh cant seem to upload photos on blogger!dang,shall do it tmr.
well today nothing much had prelims in the morn then proceed for concert..
after that headed to nanyang with bernice, seems like im the only one from my batch?
headed to vivo to join R,B&G.
left at 4 and went to find drey gy and bel!
awesome badminton match, i said loser treat green tea,in the end i lost!cause i wasnt allowed to smack:(
left at 830?
finally on my chair now.
dang i got bad blister from playing badminton with shoes without socks!ouch.

when we really love someone, throw our hearts into it.
its not the outcome that matters, its the process.

Random!

2009-08-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

Audrey calls this a"METAL lunch box"-.-

This cheapo tested the eyeliners from the bodyshop

was down with stupid flu and took medication which made me so drowsy.
meet the fatso audrey at 5 and she says she wanna slap me to wake me up.
went to town to do a quick last min shopping.
went p.s with the fatso and the fatso says she wanna pouts all the way to punggol because i said her mom wont buy her the earrings.
travelled all the way to punggol.
home now.tired tired tired.
and im so excited to go back to nyps tmr!i miss my pri sch friends.

whenever i close my eyes,i see you.

Giving up.

2009-08-29T22:54:00.006+08:00

i really dont feel like doing anything.
i wanna give up.
im losing hope in everything.
Family, friends and myself.im tired.
i dont know how to carry on anymore.things arent as simple or easy as i thought.
i should have left long time ago.
i find it meaningless everyday.
im trying yet the results are not producing.
and i missing you every moment.
i've never forgotten you,even if u did,i guess i deserve it.
cause of one reason, you deserve so much better.
i hope you'll find your happiness.

its been 394 days without you

2009-08-28T18:51:00.005+08:00

Exhausted.

Thinking of you even more than usual.

You are perfect as you are.

God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

2009-08-27T19:37:00.003+08:00

dragging myself from bed every morning.how long is this life going on like this, i cant take it anymore.im tired of everything. things i expected myself to do well, i didnt. those things i expect myself to do badly,true enough it was badly done.i wanna leave the land and be in the sea.

What most people really want is someone to listen, to respect and understand them. When they realize that you understand them, they are motivated to understand your viewpoint.

2009-08-26T17:47:00.003+08:00

"It’s sad when people you know
become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you use to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them."

2009-08-26T17:35:00.003+08:00

paper was...
anws initial plan was to go home to catch up on my slp, but i saw gy, joey, becky and bel,
so they asked me to join them for lunch,then i called drey too.
last min decision to watch"up".yup and we were taking so many photos in the cinema until when we finish taking,the lady said"excuse me,no taking of photos"we just looked at each other and giggle!hahahah!
now my knee is really painful i dont know why,but its hurting real much:'(

no matter what i do, i always forget to forget you.

2009-08-25T22:33:00.003+08:00

Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same.

maths paper was a killer.tmr geog and physics.its time to hit the books georgina. and and one thing i screwed up my oral!like the passage has these words:"two purposes....." i said "two por por por!!!"and normally i will re-read again and the second time i "por por por"again!arghhh i felt so embarrassed!!like i think the tcher was laughing..and good game the conversation was healthcare in singapore.well done huh, prelims for ss was also healthcare.

2009-08-24T14:24:00.002+08:00

Learn from yesterday,live for today, hope for tomorrow.

anws visiting grandparents was awesome yesterday. seeing him getting older and older day by day..he lost weight.his energy level is not as high anymore, after a long day he was tired..he could only sit there and fall aslp. and grandma had problems with her legs and her legs aches everyday. i really hope i could smth for them..but i dont know how and what i can do. visiting them yesterday made me realise how i actually have neglected them for so long.i use to visit them once a week, yet now i visit them a few months once?i feel so guilty.

school was short and sweet.i miss my darlings cause i nv see any of them except bernice.
ss was a killer and at least i could do chem paper.mid yr i only scored 2 n a half for the god dam paper-.-i know its retarded.at least this time i know i wont get that low.im confident for the paper.:)

maths paper tmr..its another killer!
and i screwed up the chinese paper again.i bet lao shi is gonna say i didnt put on effort again.like hello i read the question wrongly right,and merely wrote out of point..at least i realise my mistake and wont repeat it again in Os right.i know lao shi meant well but god i really really cant write a good essay for chinese!:(

2009-08-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

this good friend of mine insist that she looks nice in this pic like i giving this face now -.-.
anws she finds it nice cause i dont know why..but credits to me!i took this so called"nice" picture.
i swear she is one crazy bitch.but i still love her:)
anws should be studying now, freaking ss and chem paper tmr.
georgina is dead.

2009-08-23T14:02:00.006+08:00

I miss those time.time passes,people change, people die, people excel.
I will learn to treasure them before anything happens.
I've lost many people in life, i cant afford to bear the pain again.
Today, made me realize how long i didnt visit my grand parents and how much
i really miss them.
And how many times i promised to help my parents yet i didnt.
I Miss my Family.
I Miss my Friends.
I Miss Everyone.

2009-08-22T17:20:00.003+08:00

i dont need you to point out my wrongs.there's nothing left to say.
i really tried to mend this problem. but since you want to do this, fine.
dont say anymore, i'll just leave it as it is.

2009-08-21T16:48:00.001+08:00

Dont ask me why.
Maybe i shouldnt even have appeared.
I need another day to break down.
There's nothing left to say.

2009-08-20T17:53:00.003+08:00

i gotta change myself.

i feel like breaking down.just for today.

The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long.

2009-08-19T18:05:00.007+08:00

okay just a quick update,school was fun,revision, revision and more revision.chinese results was disappointing..

photos taken during national day hols and gathering with besties at holland.

bernice protecting her "assets"

ducky enjoying her crayfish tom yam soup.

group photo

Blue lagoon
Long island tea

2009-08-18T16:02:00.004+08:00

sch was bad,11 of us got scolded in the morning and we have to stay back everyday until 5 and stand at parade sqaure every morning.how awesome.
dpa results..:was bad..wasnt choosen though...kinda disspointed.and tmr is chinese o level results, i think its gonna be worst.

2009-08-17T20:54:00.003+08:00

currently on the phone WITH BRENDA LIM LI JIN.BRENDA SAYS *******SUCKS.i miss this bitch..missing in school for like 1 week:(school is boring without seeing this fat bitch beside me during recess.when i see her, i'll be very motivated to EAT.i dont know why but i guess when i see her, she just reminds me of food.

school was great..lessons were nothing muchh though only geog wksht and practical..sighh i have to stop going trg and start revising for prelims/o levels. but i really miss trg..sigh. i really feel like giving up now..i need motivation..but i guess with motivation..it still doesnt help.

2009-08-16T18:34:00.009+08:00

school was awesome recently...i really really love sch esp lessons in humanities room esp geog and physics.sigh prelims are starting yet im not motivated:(help!anws went trg on sat..awesome!i really love trg and vb now..like say when u graduate u will play so much better as there isnt any pressure..after trg headed to shire's place to get stuff to go to my house and study tgt..after that headed to sim lim square to get drey's thumbdrive,poor girl couldnt retrieve her documents back..she has to redo the coursework which we've done for seven months and she must complete it by monday.lesson learnt:always have back up copies of important documents!that explains why i immediately got a hard drive as i got a feeling my laptop is gonna crash any moment.

anws yesterday night was horrible..effing cab cheated my money..it was sat and obviously whoever idiot also knows orchard would be jammed..yet that idiot still went by orchard..i swear i was really angry and i really wanted to blast at him. if i got like one 50 dollar note i swear i will throw it into his face slam the door.he totally made me turned off.and was suppose to watch soccer with my uncle and sis yet i fell aslp..i feel so bad!but anws gunners scored 6-0.well done gunners!

okay currently sitting at starbucks waiting for aud to buy me food!gosh im hungry and i also promised my sis and jazreel to have supper with them.im turning fat.gahhh tmrs trg and pe on tuees..lookng forward to it!i miss everyone..cant wait to see them tmr.

i learnt my lesson.ever since u were gone,i learn to treasure things before its gone and appreciate whatever others have done for me.i want u to come back so that i can show u what i've learnt and treasure you this time.

2009-08-12T22:07:00.003+08:00

EDITED---pictures taken today!

national day celeb!

Look at the colour difference between drey's and mine

lessons were pretty awesome today..at least we had one free period and maths was efficient,managed to solve the questions by myself!awesome..i simply love physics class..and yup chinese, gah i dont udnerstand why we still gotta take chi prelims when o levels for chi is over,i mean its really a waste of time..and writing essays over and over again..and dang i just rmbed i have not completed the essay that was given today..dang i hate chinese..yup and after sch, went to sgh for my mri results, its confirmed that my right knee has dislocated and the funniest part was..doctor says no climbing of stairs, and no duck walking exercise..but he says its best i do PE.like hello i mean if a teacher sees u going for PE lessons and stuff it proves that im alright..i dont know how to explain to my teacher tmr..gahhh hate this feeling..

2009-08-12T18:18:00.002+08:00

august 2nd.
finally getting a blog setup after so long!thks to shire persuasion!and and thanks for helping me with my blog name!great!awesome day today..went to meet shire at united square and slacked at subway webcammed bren and yup walked around for more than an hr to wait for shire’s tuition to end..after that we headed to ION orchard kinda nothing muchh..yup dont know why just kinda feel like getting a blog though. gahh kinda worried for my knee right now..MRI tmr and it cost like freaking $920.60!sorry daddy. i miss trainings and beach.

august 3rd.
gahh i love my class..awesome class!pictures will do the talking:)
“got tcher got tcher!!!”(one of my classmate shouted and
we all just happen to turn

AUDREY"S HOUSE:D

2009-08-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

I love bernice !

She is so nice!

Lucky to have her as my friend!

I mean best friend!